Don't know what I'm ment to do , I'm so happy but so devistated that you are not here , I know you already know but I don't know how I'm ment to do this without you mum . Hurts to think you will never hold this baby but I know this little gift was from you . Some days are so hard and I just wish I could have a hug . I have no one to talk to anymore and I feel like I'm going to explode some days . Me and jayme are so happy that we finally have baby number two on the way but it's so sad that you will never be here in person :( need u soo much mum xxxxx